That you would feel that it could all drag you down with it. That you're next in line. He's got his finger pointed at you.
Or maybe your already there, maybe your already in the midst of your own burning fire.
Usually, these kinds of thoughts are the kinds that take up shelter in my mind. They haunt me, constantly, usually.
But lately?
We're on opposite ends of the looking glass.
"Soon you will be on top of the world." (-fortune cookie)
Lately, with the exception of the usual struggles of my mind, aside from the constant war fought between the soldiers upstairs,
I'm fine.
I feel a good change in the winds, actually.
I've been looking up,
I've seen the seemingly insignificant signs, i've taken them in, i've filed them away, and i'm letting the little optimistic that's nestled in my head do as he pleases with them.
The cold breeze coming in my rolled down window, opposed to the usual hot and sticky.
Felt like an ocean breeze
came all the way from the coast,
just to tell me, that things are looking up.
The condensation on my car window in the morning,
like every tiny droplet of dew, saying "Hello! Smile!"
And so i did.
And ever so slightly, my hidden optimist friend, is fighting his way through the bad, and he soon enough will break through the surface of my skin.
Every smile that comes naturally, without force.
Every laugh shared with those i love.
Every smirk, every thought of something wonderful.
When usually my head is filled with the negative.
Today, it is not.
Tomorrow?
I will smile.
...
"I promise, that one day, everything will be better for you." (-Donnie Darko)
....
people in trouble thats my pornography
people at their very worst
and its totally work safe.
-asw
